A few days ago I was jumped while walking in the subway, at the Times Square station. It started when I passed a guy on the platform. He followed me and started yelling. I was listening to an audiobook with headphones in.
“Yo are you from New York?” He spit when he yelled.
“Huh?” I took the headphones out of my ears and tried to figure out what was going on.
He grabbed my shirt and pushed my up against a wall. My head slammed against the tile behind us.
“I’ve had enough of you freaks walking around in the subway….”
I was wearing a Bonobos shirt and khakis.
He kept yelling until the train pulled up, and I kept wondering if I should hit him.
About 45 seconds into the confrontation his face changed from anger to shock, maybe a bit of horror, and he ran off to catch the train.
As he was walking off all I could say was “Jesus Christ, man…”
I got on the train, sat down and rode home. The car was full of people who saw what happened, but nobody said anything.
That’s what it feels like to be an adult. My brothers aren’t around to protect me, no parents to tell me what to do, who to talk to or what to think, but there’s also this inherent emptiness. No support system unless we build one, and nobody around to stand up when crazy people throw us against walls.
My 22nd year is going to be different. I’ll call it the year of building a support system. I’ve made a lot of friends, but still don’t feel like I have a strong enough safety net if things go wrong.
It’s been a productive year so far: I moved to New York, went around the world, made a bunch of friends, and took this blog to a new level. I feel good about where my life is going, but know there’s still so much to do.
What makes me happiest is hanging out with people that build me up, and doing it all the time. That being said, this last month has been one of the happiest of my life, and I have to blame it on the large amount of new people that keep showing up and liking me back.
It’s going to be a great 2014.
P.S. Here’s a video about what happened on my birthday. It’s a little different than the stuff I normally put out, so let me know what you think by leaving a comment or messaging me.